Instruction Manual

I wish I could give you an instruction manual on how to deal with pain
My face would be on the very first page
My life would fill each page
And then maybe you could see that we are almost the same
Then you could see the similarities and why you feel such pain
I`d be the author of the manual and hold your hand through each stage
My words would become true and relate to your pain
How you feel on the inside and you escape yourself from becoming insane
I`ve felt every emotion there is to feel
Half of the time my experiences seem unreal
I can guide you through and tell you all you need to know and more
Just so you won`t have to experience the daggers that will pierce your soul and kill your core
I know because I`ve been there
I was there when my innocence was stolen
And I was there when I realized my home and family was broken
I was there when I saw my Granny cry
And watched her stare into space because her last sister had died
I was there when my mother and my sister had that fight
I was there when my cousin Angie would cry at night
A broken heart is a bitch
And I was first in line to witness it
I was there to see some things that I shouldn’t have seen
Frown as my laughs and smiles came so few and far between
No stranger to tears, pain, and deep thoughts
And now my pain still exists
But I refuse to become consumed by it
Accepting people for who they were and loving them for who they have become
I wish I had a manual on how to deal with pain
I wish I could wipe away all your tears and protect you from all of your deepest fears
Lock you away to enjoy the joys of ignorance
But until I write the manual and delay the bliss
Allow me to comfort you, beginning with a kiss